Tuesday, February 10, 2015

dreamers + doers: Morgan



I have known Morgan since those early high school days. Although she was a few years younger, we ran with the same crowd and from the beginning, I think she would agree when I say we had a unique kind of bond. During crazy high school and college parties, we all too often found ourselves having these deep heart to heart conversations. I have seen her grow into such a beautiful wife and mother. She is an incredibly anointed writer and shares her heart and God's truth on an almost daily basis. Really, Morgan is one amazing warrior for Christ, a true living example of love and grace and mercy and gospel. I am so thankful our friendship has lasted throughout all these years. Don't let this post be the last you read of hers...His Hands, His feet, His heart is a true testimony of God's power. Her blog will bless you BIG. 

“He will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever; Do not forsake the works of Your hands.”- Psalm 138:8
When I was around eight years old, I began to develop a dreadful fear of throwing up. I realize most people, if not all, would not claim to like vomit, but this went deeper. Every night, I would make my mom promise that I was not going to get sick. Sometimes, I would come downstairs in fear, claiming that I thought, “it was going to happen”. I am not sure why this plagued me so, and I cannot remember if I truly had stomachaches or if it was the whole “mind over matter” concept; but I can tell you that at the time, it was as real as any struggle I have walked through since.

Fast forward 20 years or so. In August of 2012, we found out we were going to have twins. I spent the first 20 weeks of pregnancy nauseated to the crux, over the toilet about 12 of those weeks. We all laughed about the irony of that eight year old girl and the things she had no idea awaited. The truth is, while it was miserable, it sadly became a way of life, and what used to haunt me became the norm. When I look at verses like Psalm 138:8, I often think back on the things that used to stress me out. I find so much comfort in the fact that God does not limit those things He is going to perfect. He does not say, “I will perfect those things that actually have significance” or, “I will perfect those things that you aren’t being dramatic about and are actual problems”. No. If it concerns you, it concerns Him.

For those of you that do not know the story God is leading our family through, you might want to click here before you move on. As an outside looking in, I can assure you that the details of our family’s life are too much for me. If someone else were walking through the days that we walk through, and I had not been given the wisdom that I have, I would most definitely give a good southern, “Bless your heart” to myself. But God. Our Sovereign Lord, in His perfect wisdom, did choose this lot for me. He chose a life full of doctor’s appointments and therapies, feeding difficulties and troubles in illness, unknowns and uncertainties. There are days that it feels just too much. Moments that I take a step back and truly feel like I cannot handle one more second of our reality. Yet as time has gone on and I have watched God literally carry us through different layers of this journey, I am more and more convinced that these specific details are His kind, loving, gracious, merciful way of, “perfecting that which concerns me”. Many people say that they could not do it. They hear different pieces of this day to day life and it sounds like a foreign world that would be best avoided all together. Yet, I am here to tell you that at the end of the day, I would not trade a bit of this life because I know in the depths of who I am that He is writing these details and that His plans are good. I often tell people, usually with tear-filled eyes, that in giving me twins with special needs, God ultimately gave me a gift that I could never repay Him back for: the gift of constantly having something in my life that makes me long for eternity. Without our girls, I shamefully say that I would have been tempted to live a comfortable, Christian life. Now, I recognize how boring that sounds and how much more fulfilling this adventure He has led us to is! There is so much freedom in living a life in which this truth pulsates through your very being: I am fully, wholly dependent on the God who made me on a second by second basis. Each and every day, I wake up and know to my core that without Him I cannot do this life. What joy that brings! This suffering, my friends, is a privilege. The world might scream otherwise but my soul breathes out this truth as we walk through these moments and experience intimacy with Him like we have never known. Jesus.
And, when I forget this beautiful truth, often in moments where the world’s perception has clouded my vision, I go back to these living, active words:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who fo the joy that was set before Him endured the cross…”- Hebrews 12:1-2a
Friends, the cloud of the world is nothing in light of the brightness and beauty of our God. He has paved this path for us and now, instead of fearing the next “bad” thing, I can know that,
“God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns.”-Psalm 46:5

In all things. At all times. In all ways.

Friends, what season are you walking through that feels like too much? What areas of your life are you looking to God to in bitterness instead of trusting that He is perfecting that which concerns you? Beyond that, what is concerning you that you are not laying at His feet? My prayer for each of you today is that you would find joy in the journey, with full assurance that your disabilities are nothing in light of His abilities. My heart’s desire for you- yes, you!- is that the eyes of your heart would be opened to the adventure in the details, sometimes most especially the hard ones. He is working in all things, and He is worthy. Let’s raise open hands up in praise today, joyfully trusting the works of His hands and the intentions of His heart.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Taking stock

These images are so cozy and gorgeous, I just had to share. Our home has all wooden walls like these pictures show and a great black wood stove. I'm probably in the minority here, but I love winter days and I am not looking to spring quite yet. 

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Drinking: water and water and water. Boring, I know.
Making: these super adorable Minecraft Valentine's with my 2 favorite boys 
Reading: unfortunately, nothing right now. Have any good book suggestions?! 
Wanting: To go camping. 
Watching: Chef. Who doesn't love a food truck?! The language is not good, but seeing Carl Casper overcome his failure and run with his dream, so inspiring. And it made me hungry. For beignets, and cuban sandwiches. 
Listening: Stop whatever you are doing and go get the Serial podcasts. I'm serious. It's that good. I listened to while I cleaned, while I cooked, while I got ready, for 4 days straight. It had me hooked from the first episode. Something about Sarah Koenig's voice as the narrator and each of the characters and the twists and turns and mystery of the case...so addicting. Then go google the SNL skit about it. Hilarious. But apparently Sarah Koenig didn't think so. 
Eating: eggs and Aidell's chicken and apple sausage. YUM. 
Smelling: K.mac's delicious smelling candles. Every single one I have gotten has been amazing. 
Enjoying: This crazy warm weather we are having. It got up to 50 yesterday! Felt like spring!  
Loving: My Thursdays. All 3 kids are in school. They have fun, I catch a breather. A win-win for everyone. 
Hoping: To keep on getting my body in shape. I know you are ready for me to stop talking about whole30, but seriously, it has changed my life. It's just nice to take care of myself and get myself healthy, for Kyle and my kids. Such a great feeling. 
Needing: Some wardrobe updates. All I wear is black and grey. I need color! 
Feeling: Thankful. To live where we do. And for new relationships. It's just so good. 
Wearing: These leggings from White House Black Market. They surpass all other leggings on the market. Thick, slimming, wear with everything.The black doesn't fade, like at all. I just purchased my second black pair and got the gray pair at buy one, get one 50% off. 
Bookmarking: I LOVE tests that tell me a little more about my personality. I just have thing for trying to "figure myself out" all the weird, odd things about me. This is a good one! I'm a type 7...The Enthusiast. It is SO me. 

Thursday, February 5, 2015

dreamers + doers: Anna


I am so excited to welcome Anna to Mountain Callings today. Fun fact: her Mama and I went to Ethiopia for the first time together back in 2011. I have loved watching her and Ryan grow their nonprofit, One Heart Africa, into what it is today. Her passion for Africa is contagious and I just know that super HUGE things are on the horizon for her. I'll let Anna take it from here!

"So, when are you coming here?" 

I was sitting in my very exciting Western Civ class at Lee University when this Facebook message from an old friend I hadn't talked to since our high school graduation popped up on my laptop. Obviously, I was way too committed to learning about Gothic vs. Renaissance Architecture to reply (hahahaha jk). The truth is, this random message was a very welcome distraction from the inward search for meaning that was happening inside of my brain at that moment. It was the spring semester of my second year in college, I still hadn't even come close to declaring a major, and my life revolved around whatever guy I was dating at the time and the fact that I was a vain little 19-year-old girl that could play guitar. Livin big, y'all. Up until this point in my life, I had always been the overachiever. But, college was different. It was hard. I actually had to study. Making friends was more difficult than I thought it would be, AND they expect me to choose what I was going to do with my life. Say what?! No, thanks. I'll just talk to people on Facebook all day. Which brings us back to Mr. Randompants' message up there.

"Come where? Lol," I replied. Because everything makes you "lol" when you're chatting with a cute boy online, right?

"Africa! I remember you telling me before we graduated that you had always wanted to come here."

He was absolutely right. I could specifically remember that conversation. We had about ten minutes left in choir, so our teacher gave us a little bit of free time before the bell rang. Since high school graduation was only a few weeks away, I was talking with all of my fellow altos about their plans when one of them mentioned that Ryan Carmichael was going to be heading to South Africa and Swaziland for a nine-month missionary training program instead of going the traditional college route. I was SO jealous. I had always been obsessed with Africa. I watched documentaries on tribes when I was in elementary school just for fun, LOVED when missionaries from Africa came and talked to my GA class, and The Lion King was totes obvi my favorite movie/soundtrack of all time. So, I marched up to Ryan, confessed my jealousy, and informed him that I would be hardcore Facebook stalking him while he was there--a promise I totally kept.

My reply to his question consisted of a lot of junk about how I wanted to be done with college and married before I spent more than two weeks overseas. Really, what I was saying was, "Hey, Ryan. I'd really like to go to Africa, but I am far too terrified to do what I feel like God has been telling me to do from a very young age because it doesn't make sense as far as 'my plan' goes and my parents would get mad and I would have to break up with my boyfriend and it costs money and stuff." Sidenote: I'm serious about that "young age" thing, too. Check it out:


 Ryan (thankfully) didn't buy it. He encouraged me to look up trips with Adventures in Missions (AIM), the organization that he had originally gone to South Africa and Swaziland with in 2008-2009. Now, it was 2010 and he was back in South Africa and Swaziland by himself to continue the work that had been established during his previous trip. Whatta hunk. Five minutes after our conversation, I was signed up for a three-month trip to Kenya in the fall. (Quick note to all college students out there: I do not support or endorse signing up for trips to Africa on impulse.)

Kenya was a major turning point in my life. First of all, it was just downright awesome. We spent our first week living in tents in the middle of "the bush" with the Maasai tribe. Hello, National Geographic dream world. I would literally wake up every morning with "Circle of Life" playing in my head. If it wasn't playing in my head, I would plug my iPod into external speakers and play it really loudly so that everyone could hear. We saw zebras and giraffes on the side of the road and got to name brand new babies while huddled inside mud huts. This was the Africa I had dreamed about.

I'm pretty sure we might have named every baby in that village Esther. 

Our view from tentville. 
We spent the following week with the Turkana tribe (which was VERY different from the Maasai) and then returned to our home base in Kijabe for the remainder of our time. For the most part, we spent our days teaching at local preschools, working at the missionary hospital in town, or handing out food at the nearby IDP camp (refugees in their own country). Seeing the poverty and hearing each person's story was heartbreaking. I met a 14-year-old girl who had quit school to take care of her four younger brothers because their parents had either died or left. I locked eyes with sick babies who were in their final days as I held them and prayed over them and their mommas. I talked to women who had been raped and beaten and were forced to be silent. Their stories changed me. But, the wisdom and encouragement of my amazing team and the way God spoke to my heart during that time changed me more.

Here's what I learned in Kenya: Without God's voice in our lives, guilt overpowers conviction, opportunity seems more like obligation, and we worry about what I can do instead of what He wants to do through us. We compare the junk of each other's lives instead of celebrating each other's unique giftings. Comparing my life and junk with others is exactly what I had been doing. My intense passion for Africa and education and job creation was a gift. Maybe not what I felt was a useful gift at the time, but it was still a gift. The dreams I had about spending my life on this continent were not stupid, they were on purpose. Now, all I had to do was walk in that. I chose to return to Lee and pursue this awesome opportunity I had of earning a college degree. I had no idea what was going to happen after that, but I simply asked God to use me. That's it.

The day I returned to Cleveland from Kenya was so weird. I felt like a stranger in my own hometown and remember thinking, "Wow, there's a lot of white people here." To celebrate my homecoming, my family had arranged to go out to dinner that night at a place of my choosing. For some reason I chose Chili's. Now, let's get something straight... I do not even remotely like Chili's and I'm not sorry for saying that. But, alas, I chose Chili's and off we went to that fine dining establishment. Guess who was there? None other than the person who encouraged me to go to Africa in the first place, Ryan Carmichael. I. Was. PUMPED! Another human being who could relate with me! We were seated by a window when I saw him leaving. Naturally, I knocked on the window and showed him my new keychain in the shape of Africa and mouthed very dramatically, "I'm back!" Nailed it. He did a "hang loose" sign with his hand while saying "cool" and walked away. Not quite the reaction I had expected, but I still told my family that night that I was going to marry him.

Apparently, I wasn't too much of a dummy at Chili's because he messaged me that night on Facebook (Facebook clearly rules my generation) and asked for my number so that we could talk about "re-entry" and our experiences in Africa. I gladly obliged. Over the next few months we shared our dreams with each other--dreams that consisted of free education, job creation, and throwing a wrench in the poverty cycle all while sharing the Gospel. And guess what happened? Our dreams aligned. It was on purpose and it was beautiful.

Ryan also shared with me that he and a good friend in Swaziland, Mancoba, were in the beginning stages of building a preschool in Mozambique. Mancoba was a boy Ryan met while teaching at his high school in 2009. At that time, Mancoba was living in a closet at his church because his family had kicked him out due to his Christian faith. This boy was different from the others. Instead of wanting to go to America or Europe and get rich like many of his peers, he told Ryan that he felt called to the neighboring country of Mozambique. Through a series of really crazy events, they acquired a piece of land in a small, rural village called Licilo and started a feeding program while building a preschool with $200ish a month.

Um... yes. All day, yes. Sign me up right now.

In December 2011/January 2012, a year after we started dating, we decided to visit Mancoba and the school that had been under construction for over a year in Mozambique. We arrived in Licilo to find this beautiful thing.


Let's be honest... It looked more like a storage shed than a school. But, we were still excited to see the progress being made. As soon as we got to Licilo, we knew there was something different about this village than the other villages we had visited in years past. There were kids playing at the school, but none of them seemed interested in us. In fact, they were terrified of us. I had to whip out the old digital camera trick for them to even approach me. In addition, there were hardly any men around. After asking a bunch of questions, we found out that the majority of men in this village go to South Africa to work in the mines. Many of them don't come back because they either get sick and pass away, or start a new family in South Africa. If the men do come back, many times they bring tuberculosis and HIV with them. We also found out on this trip that there were many orphans in Licilo, the malaria rate in was astronomical, there was no access to clean water, and little access to healthcare. Whoa, talk about some huge problems. When we all returned to our host family's house that night, it happened again--we started to dream. Ryan, Mancoba, and myself dreamed about the school, fresh water, men not having to leave to find jobs, malaria being eradicated, and, most of all, bringing hope back to this village. Our hearts were on fire when we got back out of excitement for the future, and also because Ryan asked me to marry him in Africa. Not too shabby, Carmichael.


When we got back to America, I felt really overwhelmed. I was thrown back into school and work, had to start planning a wedding, and felt this really heavy burden for Licilo every single day of my life. We started asking different people, churches, and organizations for help, but doors just kept getting shut. So, here we are, a 21 and 22-year old couple having no idea what to do next. All we had was a blog and our own social media outlets. We named our project "One Heart Africa" and started talking about it to other people, and then those people started talking, too. People started asking us how they could donate to helping finish the school and dig wells for Licilo. It was incredible.

That was the only the beginning of God's plans for One Heart Africa. Since finishing the first classroom in the fall of 2012, we have seen three fresh water wells dug (two in Licilo, one in Siteki, Swaziland) with another one on the way and bought a 25-acre farm in Swaziland where we grow nutrient-dense fruits and vegetables for families affected by HIV and employ two full-time farmers. Sharing Hope Preschool in Licilo has grown from 18 to 100 students in just two years and trains and employs four local mommas. The feeding program at the school continues to this day and has served over 15,000 meals for the children of Licilo (who we lovingly refer to as our Mozambabies). Because of how OHA has grown, we are planning to move to Africa in Spring 2016. Guys, God is good!

Mancoba, Ryan, and me with our Mozambabies at Sharing Hope Preschool

Clean water for Licilo!

Our head farmer, Khosini, water spinach plants in one of our greenhouses in Swaziland

Sharing Hope Preschool today!
I'm not gonna lie, y'all - working across two continents can be super hard and stressful. It took an huge amount of research and work to establish this organization, and it takes a lot of work to run it. I feel way under qualified and not ready. Sometimes, I want to quit so bad. There are days where I doubt that this is what I'm supposed to be doing and even doubt my faith all together. Most of the time I'm consumed with paperwork and emails and newsletter content and blocking out haters and dishes and laundry. But, then I take time to look back and thank God for using someone whose life is so messy and ugly. It is in those moments, where we sit at the feet of Jesus and allow ourselves to rest, that we are restored. His grace surrounds us, and we can emerge feeling strong and renewed. His grace is sufficient over and over and over again.

As I wind up, I just want to share a few simple things to remember about yourself as you head out into the world and pursue your dreams:

1. You are purposefully gifted.

It may not be in what some would consider to be the "traditional" sense. Who cares? God did that on purpose. Work what you got, girl (or boy)!  

2. Dreams take time and hard work.

Like... a lot of time and hard work. And failure. And starting from scratch. Surround yourself with a team of wise people and keep pressing on.

3. Your dreams don't have to be dramatic.

A lot of the times we think that we have to dream to be an actress or a crazy successful entrepreneur to be living our dreams. No way, Jose. Find your gifting, commit it to the Lord, refine it, and live it.

4. Haters gonna hate.

There will always be people who discourage and disagree with you. That's okay. Just blare some TSwift and dance around a little bit. It will help, I promise.

So, that's my [very long] story. Thanks so much for reading! If you want to hear more about One Heart Africa or keep up with all of the Mozambique and Swaziland happenings, visit our website, "like" us on Facebook, or follow us on Instagram.

Now, go change the world! :)

Anna Carmichael
Co-Founder, One Heart Africa


Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Wanderings: Slide Lake

Saturday was BEAUTIFUL, not a cloud in the sky and fairly warm. We were itching to get outside with the kids for a fun family day. The outdoor possibilities of places to go and be adventurous and active here are seriously endless. After several recommendations from friends, we decided to rent some snowshoes and go to Slide Lake. Seeing that there has been very little snowfall here in the past couple of weeks, we probably could have saved the 40 bucks and not rented the snowshoes and just hiked in our boots. You live and learn. Just a little info for those interested...Slide Lake is located in the Bridger-Teton National forest. This is a natural lake created by a landslide in 1925 which dammed the Gros Ventre river. This area is so different than the Teton views we are used to seeing, but still just as awesome. It has a great backroad to get to it (goodness knows I love me a good backroad). We had a blast and made some really great memories. Kyle thinks it was probably a 2 mile hike, roundtrip. The kids were troopers and we only heard minor complaints and requests to be carried on the trek back. :)



We didn't obey the signs and went off the trail to find a spot to sit for a bit and let the kids play. They had so much fun sliding down the hills on their bellies like penguins. We got some great video coverage of that to send to the grandparents. We also brought stuff to make hot chocolate so that was a big hit. All 3 kid are becoming quite the outdoor enthusiasts. 






I still pinch myself sometimes, that hey, we ACTUALLY live here. The things our kids are experiencing are unlike any other. To us, it is truly one of the best gifts we could give them.


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Looking ahead to Thursday, I can't wait to share the first dreamers and doers guest blogger! She is a girl after my own heart, with a crazy love for Africa. I can't wait to introduce her to you. The lineup of ladies throughout the month of February is incredible, each with a unique dream, passion, and purpose. Show them some love and cheers in the comments section here and on social media outlets. 



Also, if you haven't already, head over to Facebook and "like" the Mountain Callings page. I would SO appreciate it if you did and maybe even hit that sweet little share button. :) I also decided to change my instagram handle to Mountain Callings to streamline things a bit. I'll still be posting the same, maybe even a bit more often over there on the IG (my favorite form of social media). One of my goals in 2015 is to grow this space on the internet. I struggled for a bit, praying for God to reveal what He wanted this to look like, not that I want to be known, but that I want to make HIM known. I believe with all my heart that my journey He writes for me (and your journey He writes for you) is meant to be shared. I know that this is the outlet for me, for now anyways, to share His truth. All that to say, thank you for supporting me so far. xoxo